Playlist Take 1

there it is again
though theres nothing like the original
i havent felt like this since
i was like a sophomore in high school
i woke up this morning
i ran
and it was the happiest day ever
been tingling from head to toe
an i dont even need a tangible reason
even though on the other hand im definitely
going haf crazy like musiq
and thats not my style
if i put it out of my mind it wont exist right?
at least thats how it used to work
but this is new
too new
out of sight out of mind
i livefor the fame
for the fortune
fo the glory
for the pwer
dont take that from me
im used to being superficial
its my blanket
if u take that..then what
i dont want what i cant have
tha a given
but u kno that saying
the heart wants what the heart wants
my heart is a very stupid indvidual
it culd all be so simple like lauryn hill said
but u rather make it hard
lovn u is like a battle
and we both enjoy the scars
see? there it goes again

The Flood: Overflow

so im gonna be Your rock
hopefully thats what You want from me
it looks like thats what You need from me.
so far
i dont know where i went wrong
im throwing up my hands in frustration
and my heart is crying out for You
cant you see?
so just take my eyes
cause regardless im blind.
i dont know what else i can do to prove myself to You
please show me the way.
they're trying to tear me down
so im asking You to build me up
breathe life into me again
because i have to change Your world
just breathe into me first
i want to feel the fire
the ecstasy
the power that only Your love can bring
oh Overflow
i want my cup to runneth over
i want this love to overflow
to make my heart explode
i want Your love to spill
cover everything
oh Overflow
so i can know what its like
to be on fire for You
to give me strength to leave this place
lift this land
put it in Your hands
i want to feel it
my heart to race
beat 30,000 times in a minute
oh Overflow
for my pen to run out of ink
writing You're amazing
hit the highest note
highest note
throw up my hands in elation
Your love is too much
other love is not enough
pull out my hair
get excited
oh Overflow
Overflow
and break me down
and take over my mind
consume all my thoughts
so i can tell the world
tell Your world
of Your overflow
so i'll be Your rock
oh Overflow
hopefully thats what You want from me
oh Overflow
anything You ask of me
let it Overflow

Spoiled Little L.A. Girl

Cause when that BOOM came
i was damn angry
DAMN ANGRY
cause i was mad at you.
i dont know whats up with you
but quite frankly it doesnt matter.
cause two wrongs dont make a right
so you doing unto me what i was doing unto you
is unChristian and I know you're God fearing.
Confession: i was stupid
and i WANT to apologize
but i NEVER apologize
because im NEVER wrong
and ive NEVER been wrong
and im damn TOO cute
to have to take ANY bull
from anybody especially you.
i was trying to make you my moon
make you my stars, my sky, my all
but i was wrong
cause i did it too late.
when you were checkin for me
i sho wasnt checkin for you
then i was checkin for you and
you sho not checkin for me.
and its a pitchblack feeling
to want what you can't have
and to have what you don't want.
while everything in between
that shud be gray and black
like they should be
is suddenly lightbright
consuming everything
and its draining me
when all i wanted was you
so now
what do i do?
Lord what do i do?

logical choice

i have to write this down before i lose it
i know its dark right now
but that doesnt change any of the words
and i dont wanna forget that said this
or that i thought this
cuz i kno i have a lot of knowledge
or at least the ability to acquire it
with that said
im mad at myself
cause i had so much logic
thats how i governed my life.
and its like
i lost it since i came to college

well girly girl

its time
stop the bullspittin around cause its time
its time to make resolutions

proclamations and declarations

about what your going to do with yourself
soon.
cuz all youve worked for is slipping away fast
and nobody seems to care
not even you
where is the logic in that?
people around you dont seem to care
where is the logic in that?
im not even gonna lie to you bee
its time
you have to make some sacrifices
and i think
they have to be the first to go
bringing you down? way down?
thats not right
remember that talk we had about
being afraid of your own greatness
same case
so ask yourself
what do you really want?
just like a typical femal
you have no clue
what you thought you wanted

has proven to be a waste
so go for whats real
a career is real
a gpa is real
a house on a hill is real
hope is real

God is real

look for whats real

you know better than to ask God for something
and then not meet him half way
if you cant meet him half
then you dont want it and clearly dont deserve it.
did you think that like magic you'd suddenly be there.
bull
here and now
choose
cut the chord
its time
choose.

Secret

i cant tell you everything
the line is not secure
there are some things that you can tell your friends
but there are those other things that are very intimate
between your heart and God's eyes
dont get me wrong
i love you and all
but there are somethings that you just arent meant to know
and man i tell you so much
almost everything
almost everything
bee has secrets
but i cant tell you
No no Lord no
these are my secrets
that nobody
Nobody
else on this earth knows
you cant force it out of me
its tucked down in there good
i wonder when they're gonna stop
there are so many
and ppl keep trying to add more to my burden
with their own secrets
can you handle it?
can you?

Never Can Say Goodbye

i was the one who started it
people spend their whole lives searching for things they'll never find
that doesnt mean they'll stop looking
in the Bible it says that even though someone else may have something
that something may not be meant for you
so what am i getting at?
im not even sure
its 4:06 am
how can you expect me to be sur eof anything right now?
ok i remember
there are somethigs on this earth that i want and cant have
and other things on this earth that i know are mine
but my own stupidity
my own stubborness and my own laziness
are keeping me from getting to them
i am right on the edge of my victory
but first i have to let go of some baggage
but its so so hard
i know i cant have this over here Lord
so please take the desire and want and lust for these things
just leave my heart
but these, oh yes, these right here Lord, are mine and mine alone.
You told me so.
it's swimming in my blood just as sure as Your tattooed on my soul.
Its more than want.
More than need.
Lord this is a part of me that i cant let die
and cant lose sight of.
grant me strength.
send Your Spirit.

Fed Up

But still I deal
Since day one uve been nothing but trouble.
And I never knew how to tell u
and So I wont
Since ur never in the wrong
U just crank it up louder, ur song.and I wont chase usince
That’s not my job
In fact none of u will get my time
That’s all I have left that’s mine
Bits of time and honestly
this is mine
Trust me Ive tried
And im tired but u cant hold me back and I wont let u
im positive
ur negative
straight to the top
did u think I was taking u with me?
not with ur poisont
hat tongue of urs that could end up getting us both killed
U say all sorts of things
But everything u need to say
So spillIs there anything u wanna tell me?
Confess, digress, contest?
Just tell me the rest
Cuz I kno theres more
Why are u sugarcoatin if ur so sure?
Since day one ive done nothing but go to war for u
And I don’t think that’s something I still want to do
Cuz honestly
Love I’m tired
And trust me I’ve been there
Trust I’ve tried it
U don’t want this and I don’t need this
And u wont pull me cuz im tired of pushing
If this is a drug for u
Then im cutting u off
Ur way too addicted & uve had enough
U don’t see this but ur dying
Im sorry ur dying
And im not gonna watch u
Even if all I had to do was catch u
Im tired Ive tried itI just cant do it again
Hopefully u’ll understand
When u get down from ur high
I wud like to stay in touch
But rite now no
Please.
just go.